04 December 2014

Our Favorite Days

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We've had a very beautiful fall in this area of NC this year. The colors have been gorgeous and long lasting due to extended amounts of rain. My Bradford Pear in my front yard just finished dropping its bright yellow leaves today.

I try to take advantage of the weather this time of year to get Liam outdoors. Liam does not handle heat well so it's too hot here in the summer to take him out for very long. We pretty much spend all July and August in the air conditioning which means when fall rolls around we are antsy to get out and enjoy our favorite season.
The only really good nature trail I've found around here that's wheelchair accessible.
 We have a nice short trail that ends at the river nearby that makes a really great place to take Liam on a hike. It's perfectly shaded all the way to the river landing. It's "wheelchair" friendly meaning it's flat and wide. The trail is not paved, it's gravel, and there are a few bumps in the off shoot trails but if you have a jogging stroller it's perfectly accessible.

I wish there were more places to be outdoors with Liam while he is in his chair. We all love being outside and hiking/walking but can't enjoy that much anymore with wee man confined to a wheelchair. You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone and we sure do miss the days of being able to explore and hike. You don't realize how hard life is in a wheelchair in the great outdoors until you're limited by where your wheels can take you.

My boys.
We came across this beautiful spot recently and was able to take Liam in his jogger for a short time through the trails along the river but the terrain became very rough and we had to abandon our journey and hang out at the river bank. Ian's such a great big brother and took Liam down to the river to dip his toes in.


No joke, I walked out to put Liam's stuff in the truck to take him to school the other day and this pile of leaves was in a heart shape on his wheelchair ramp. I was sure one of the kids did it but since it was very early in the morning and they all said they hadn't, I am taking this as a sweet message from the Lord. :) He loves Liam.

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27 October 2014

My other rant from the DR trip

When it was time to head home from the Dominican Republic and after checking in with Delta, we headed through to security. When we stepped up to security, I took our bags, shoes, and food and put them on the conveyer belt. I wheeled Liam to the metal detector and waited our turn. Security started speaking to me in Spanish. I spoke back in English and motioned that Liam couldn't come out of his wheelchair. They motioned me to take him out and continued talking in Spanish. I motioned that he doesn't come out of his chair and they just continued to stare at me.

Here's where stupidity really comes into play.

I am speaking English. I don't expect them to speak my language but since I just came from a counter where everyone spoke English and I was obviously trying to convey something about my obviously handicapped son, I assumed they would get someone who spoke English. I was not removing him from his wheelchair. Man, was I wrong.

They continued to look at me.

Finally a woman came across the detector to my side and asked me if he was a nino or nina. I said nino. She then motioned for me to take him out.

I might have started to get teary eyed at this point.

I shook my head no at her.

Rylie is standing to the side and telling me that they aren't going to let us through that I should just take him out of his wheelchair. I, however, was adamant that I not remove him from his "legs" and that it was a violation of all things sensical and humane for disabled persons to be treated in such a way. I knew Liam, who can not stand changes or transitions, was going to get upset, cry, and try to throw up on me right there in security at the airport all because they were too inept at how to handle a person with a disability who is in a WHEELCHAIR!

Rylie just looked at me like I was nuts.

The security lady just looked at me like I was nuts.

I wasn't getting anywhere.

Which meant I wasn't going anywhere.

I went against every fiber of my being and started taking Liam out of his wheelchair. And he started to cry.

Rylie took the chair apart and put it through the conveyor.

I stepped up to the metal detector carrying Liam who is now trying to throw up on me. Deep down I am thinking this is one of the most humiliating things I have ever experienced in my life and they kinda deserve to get puked on. At the same time I'm thinking that I don't really want to travel all day with puke on.

I walked through the detector when motioned through and by this time Liam was so upset and awkward to hold that I had to kneel down. I am now sitting on the floor just past the detectors waiting for them to come pat down Liam. The dude honestly did a tiny swipe of his left and right side and that was it. He couldn't really get to Liam with the way he was curling into me all agitated.

I was furious by the time it was over. I really was. Did they expect a 10 yr old, 15 yr old (insert an age), etc... to be taken from their wheelchairs and carried through a metal detector? The idea was preposterous and yet I was expected to do that with my 7 yr old. What happened to common sense? It apparently isn't very common these days, eh?

Coming into the US and going through security here was a breeze. When I got to the metal detector in Atlanta I looked at the man and I said "Please don't make me take him out of his wheelchair."  This sweet angel of a man said he wouldn't ask me to do that. I was able to go through the gates with Liam in his chair. After getting through we both got bomb residue tested (like Liam could make a bomb when he can't even hold a toy) and we both got patted down.

It would be great to have my grievance heard by the powers that be at the Santo Domingo Airport. I would just like them to understand a few things. I did email customer service after a few days of being home but I've never received a response back.

I want to be clear that I don't think they were doing anything malicious or intentionally humiliating. I believe they didn't think anything of what they were asking and didn't pay close enough attention to notice that Liam wasn't just another little kid in a stroller. If they had taken the time to look, and for sure they noticed afterword, my wee man is not your typical kid. He isn't even your typical special needs kid. But he is different and that was obvious.


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20 October 2014

Getting back to normal.

I've been wanting to give an update to our stem cell trip but some parts of the trip have really angered me and I needed a break before posting lest I look like I'm a ranting lunatic. But I probably will anyway so here goes...

Atlanta on the way down.
Can't you just see him asking if we're there yet.
The flights down there went pretty great. On our first Delta flight into the Dominican, a gentleman from business class immediately got out of his seat when he saw me get on the plane carrying Liam in that seat and he grabbed one side and helped me carry him all the way to the back of the plane. Not that I was going to refuse, but there was no way he was going to let me carry him alone. :)

On our return flight home I texted Shawn and told him I was never.ever flying with Liam again. It was the heat of the moment and I was done. Liam was over done. And I never want to do it again. Liam was a trooper. He really was. But sitting confined in a seat all day long when your body wants to move is painful.

On our first flight coming home from out of the Dominican he did pretty good. I got him situated well but he still isn't 'properly' seated so it can be a problem with his head control.

And that makes him cough.

So that's what he did.

The entire flight.

And the gentle(cough cough)man in the seat in front of Rylie rubber necked the ENTIRE flight to look at Liam. He even put his sunglasses on so he could stare with out looking so obvious. Like that wasn't obvious! I put Liam's iPad right in front of his face so the lookey loo couldn't see him.  Now, I understand, Liam is coughing. A LOT. But COME ON! Where did manners go? You look once or twice, can see the child has issues, then turn your face back around and keep to your own seat. Or, if you have a heart, ask if there's anything you can do. But don't ogle my son as if he has the freaking plague. He's obviously healthy, not crying, and I am attending to his needs. Leave us alone and get your staring fix by watching a movie. Rylie got a chance to stare him down when we switched seats and when he realized what she was doing he never looked back again. asdfghjkl...

After landing, a REAL gentleman in front of my seat, who never once turned around to look and stare, asked us if he could get our bags for us. That's what an empathetic, considerate person should do. I was so proud of him for being so kind. I wanted to tell him that but thought it would be too weird.

Trying to wake from the propofol after the extraction. This time they extracted stem cells from both hips.
When we got to Atlanta we had a three hour layover. I was happy about that because it allowed us time to get Liam out, eat, and just relax before another plane ride. Well, Liam was at his over done point. He was crying and crying and while Rylie and I tried to eat he wouldn't calm down. I had to get up and walk with him and let Rylie finish and then we'd switch off. Each time I walked him back to the tables where we were eating he would freak out and cry even harder. We switched off and I finished my now ice cold dinner and kept an eye on Rylie as she walked with Liam. Whenever she'd get close to my table he would cry again. I grabbed Liam and took off for the bathroom so he could lay out on the counter and relax and when I picked him up I lifted his shirt and saw a dark black and blue depression on his spine. His stroller straps had gotten twisted and had knotted right on the middle of his back and even though there was a thin cushion over it it was still digging into his spine.

After the cath, he wasn't complaining & for that I was shocked & happy.
I felt horrible. My poor wee man had been trying to tell me he hurt and I thought he was just bothered by all the traveling. Mom fail.

With the bruising on his thighs from the procedure and now the bruising on his back, he was not a happy guy. He cried for the rest of the layover. I felt so bad for the people in our tiny little terminal. They were probably only 20 seats and there was no escaping Liam's irritability.  None of them stared at us though. ;)

Once we were home Liam ran a low grade fever off and on for days. It would only last a couple of hours at the most.  He wasn't miserable, but he wasn't his happy self either and with not being able to give any medicines due to the stem cells, we relied heavily on homeopathic treatments to treat his discomfort. We did onions on the feet, egg whites on the feet, essential oils on the chest and feet, colloidal silver, and extra vitamins. It was the first time I've ever had one of my kids go medicine free for pain from a fever and Liam ended up doing really well.

He had to miss several days of school out of pure exhaustion and crankiness though and it took a full week following the procedure before he was back to his old self.

People ask when we will see improvements. It's a valid question. When will we see improvements? I want to see them now too. I'm praying we will see them now. But we might not see improvements for a while. It could be up to a year. And that's a long time to wait looking for signs of answered prayers and hopes and dreams.


This is the moment, after 20 min of a flipping, curving catheter, the Dr finally got it through and up into his carotid. You can't hear them in the room but they all shouted and whooped and were giving thumbs up in relief for finally getting it.


The gorgeous sunset view from our room. Ocean on the left & mountains on the right.
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03 October 2014

Glad thats over

Our driver picked us up at 12:45 yesterday to take us to the hospital and Liam was already sedated and getting his stem cells extracted by 2:00.  We were in a different area of the hospital than when we were here last time and it felt much more like a typical US hospital set up. Last year our room had a thick bed comforter and a wooden armoire and couch so this set up started out feeling like much more sanitary.

The extraction was done literally on the other side of a glass partition from our room. It was clouded so I couldn't completely see but it was comforting knowing he was within reach.

Last time when they did the extraction I didn't see Liam again until it was time for the infusion. This time Liam was brought back to me, pleasantly sedated on propofol, and he slept for most of the next two hours while they processed his stem cells. Again, it was nice to have him with me right there while we waited.

Once the cells were ready they took Liam right next door through another clouded door where they got him all set up in the cardiac cath lab. Once they had threaded the cath through his femoral artery in his left leg and had it up in his carotid, they called me back so I could watch the procedure. While the procedure is done Liam is continually under an xray and I am in the room with the monitors so I get to watch the stem cells pulse through his brain. It is still such a really cool thing to witness.

I watched them infuse on the right side of his neck, then they did something different from last time in that he went up some vessel on the back of the neck with another vial that sent an infusion right to Liam's cerebellum and parietal lobe.

Next they went to the left side but the cardiac interventionist couldn't get the cath threaded. I stood there watching and getting really nervous because he kept shooting it up his torso and then it would just bend and reroute. I didn't want to watch but at the same time I was rooted to my spot and couldn't move. The CI threaded that catheter out and switched it out a few times and after 20 min he finally got it threaded up to his neck. The whole lab fave out whoops and hollers and started giving thumbs ups to me. It was a huge relief to see that catheter up where it needed to go.

When they finished with that infusion I was asked to leave while they finished up with Liam. When the CI was done they asked me back to the room and we all gathered around and prayed over Liam.

It is a full two hours in the recovery room before we can be released and Liam did such a great job. I was dreading his recovery because last time he screamed for the entire time. And if you've ever heard Liam cry, you know he cries very quietly. But not after the last procedure. He wailed like a mortally wounded animal. This time he was so calm and only fussed a couple of times.

We were given the green light to go back to the hotel and 8 hours after leaving we were back. I was a bit concerned that Liam was running a low grade fever and sure enough in the middle of the night he woke up hot and dry and uncomfortable. I spent two hours awake with him trying to make him comfy with no meds. Dr. Anthony didn't want me to give anything if it wasn't necessary in order to allow the stem cells to proceed with out interruption. I used some essential oils tried to get him back to sleep.

This morning he still felt a bit warm so we took him to the pool for a couple of hours and it really cooled him off. I gave him a cool bath back in our room and I am praising God that he has been fever free the rest of the day.  But I'm still keeping essential oils on him for now.

Dr. Anthony called to check on him and will do so again his evening. We just feel so blessed and are thankful that things are going well.  There is a lot of bruising from the cath and they took extractions from both hips this year but he is healing very nicely. I really think the worst was having to take off the tape. Liam and tape are not friends.

Thank you for all the sweet texts and messages!The comfort felt knowing others have your back is indescribable. We are excited to head home tomorrow.  We have a long day with 12 hours of travel but after a week of isolation and this trip, I am looking forward to getting back to normal and moving Liam forward.